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2D Me

Thu, 13 Nov 2008 11:59:55 -0500

A family member emailed me yesterday asking if I wanted to join her in the fight against fat. I said yes, naturally. I’ve been so good to fat and it’s been so ungratefully poor to me. So it’s on!

She linked me to a site - www.fitday.com that tracks your progress, enables you to enter certain foods and provide you with your calorie intake. It also tells you how many calories you have to cut back on each day in order to reach your goal weight by your goal date. Pretty interesting.

Naturally, the mind starts to rationalize and look for the reasons it won’t work. I start getting frustrated with any little difficulties in pulling up the right food search results, questioning the sites format, etc. And that’s when I catch it.... The lame paralyzing excuses that lurk, so quick to suck out any energy or conviction I might work up.

So I’m going to try my best to keep up with it. Not only to support her, but for myself, as well. Winter is the hardest time to do it and perhaps, the best time for that same reason.

One of the sites features is the ability to enter your mood. It generates a face to reflect what you input. The pic above is my face. I laughed hard when I saw it. For as odd as it looks, it feels about right.

I’m trying to think of adjectives that might describe this face or possible scenarios that could lead up to one making this face. Help me out here...

What’s a Blogger to Do?

Tue, 11 Nov 2008 12:05:12 -0500

So I wanna get serious about blogging. Not because I think it’s necessary for life or even very important. It’s a calling within me, as cheesy as that sounds. I think I’m more ready to blog now than I ever was before. I’m not sure what I need to blog about .... but I think that will come naturally, in time.

The thing that held me back from seriously doing it before was fear. A friend of mine, and a person who’s postings I follow joyfully, said to me the other day that the most important thing when it comes to blogging is to trust your readers. I almost cringed just to hear her say that but it’s 100% true. And that’s exactly what I lacked before. I kept wondering, “what if someone I don’t like reads my blog?”. The truth is, while there are many behaviors that annoy me, including some of my own, there are actually very few people that I don’t like... or cannot tolerate. So the more I thought about that, the more it shrunk as an issue.

Now, I don’t really care. I’m still not sure how open I can be online. I’m very capable of it in person, though I’ve grown a lot more private in recent years. Even if no one reads it, it will satisfy me. I’ve been meaning to journal since we were encouraged to do it in 5th grade. I miss it. And the whole “I don’t have time” thing is just a lame excuse. I’m not really sure what the real reason is I haven’t done it though. Maybe it’s just laziness.

The way I see it, anyone who follows a blog is a deserving reader, as long as they do it with good intention. I guess my bigger challenge is tell more people about the site. I’ve been kinda holding it close to the chest because ... well I guess I’m picky?

So, I’m open to any blogging advice you people might have. Feel free to add a comment or email me privately. I look forward to it.

Oh, and I’m not entirely sure how, but this pic conveys how I feel about blogging. I think it’s something to do with being out in the open sun, yet having the privacy that comes with keeping my eyes closed? OK well whatever, you interpret it for yourself.

Conor Oberst @ Terminal 5

Mon, 10 Nov 2008 12:05:12 -0500

Saw Conor Oberst at Terminal 5 last night. I was really interested in seeing him perform, being that I’m a pretty big fan of Bright Eyes. They’re actually one of the last few bands I have to scratch off my list that I really want to see.

After seeing the Cure play on Randall’s Island back in... ’04? I was a bit disillusioned and realized that seeing bands really wasn’t that important. Even though they played a lot of my favorites, it just felt stale. I was a little afraid this would happen with Conor as well but to my surprise, it didn’t.

Like any true artist, he is evolving. He’s traded in whining for his obnoxious (but endearing) yelling. It has a raw passion quality to it that seems to come straight from the heart... with a tinge of insanity. I like that.

This last album self-titled “Conor Oberst” was influenced by his time in Mexico. As part chicana, I can appreciate that. Hey, stop laughing! Just cause I look like my italian mother doesn’t mean I don’t bleed red hot mexican blood. Anyway, the influence is seen in his earthy clothes and occasional hip swinging which faintly resembled some early George Michael.

The live versions of the songs definitely deepened my attachment to the songs. I especially love “I Don’t Want to Die (In the Hospital)” which includes the contagious chant “Help me get my boots on! Help me get my boots on! Help me get my boots on, NOW!”. So simple and so fun to sing.

Another pleasant surprise was walking in and realizing that Ben Kweller was opening up. I LOVE BK. And he still looks uber young. He’s got these big old cheeks like his heart is trying to squeeze out of them. His songs are really down to earth and he backs them up with some great hooks. He’s like the illegitimate son of Tom Petty and Bob Dylan, if they were gay and could pro-create. But he has this unique old soul youthfulness that’s just radiant.

I’m glad I was there with my girl Edie cause she has the true obsessive appreciation befitting a Bright Eyes fan. All in all, it was a good time. My ankles hurt afterwards which just makes me feel old but I managed to pull myself out of bed this morning and go to work, so I’ll let the energy that took serve as validation of my youth.

Meanwhile, Conor just gets older and mo’ betterer.

Here are some pics.

Featured: Souled Out!!!

Starting Over...

Sat, 8 Nov 2008 12:05:12 -0500

You may have noticed that it’s been quite a while since I’ve made any new posts or changes to this website. Long story short - I couldn’t.

My HD failed and I lost the critical file for the site. I contacted all my tech peeps and even consulted the Apple genius bar on more than one occasion. Bottom line - there was no way to salvage my site. The file was gone. My options were to either try to recreate the page using the online version as a guide or just start over. So this is my choice.

There’s been a lot that I’ve wanted to share over the last few months and it’s a small shame that procrastination thinly veiled as crippling disappointment has prevented me from doing so on this site but now I can breathe out. This is a fresh start.

Roger got me a new camera, Nikon D60 which I am just in love with. I really need to go out and take a lot more photos with it. When I do, I’ll post some of them up on here but most of them will be posted in my gallery - www.gallery.mac.com/letloveemerge.

There is more to come, so stay tuned...